Friday, 17 May 2019

Overflow

Sometimes it feels like my cup runneth over. I am a very lucky woman!

Last night Henry and I just couldn't get enough of each other. We had sex twice in a span of less than two hours. We haven't had sex more than once a day in quite a long time, and it was always once in the morning, once in the evening. But last night we fucked so passionately and it felt SO good... we were cuddled up in bed watching TV and started kissing again and suddenly I felt his cock stiffening against me again... I shifted my hips so that he could slide into my slightly sore but wet and waiting pussy. Let's just say I slept well last night! ;)

I try really hard not to compare my relationships with Henry and Charles, because it's not fair to either of them, for different reasons. I mean, they're different people, and since a relationship is the sum of its parts, of course they will be different. Not to mention that my relationship with Henry is deeper and has more intimacy and familiarity just because of longevity, while my relationship with Charles is naturally going to have more passion and NRE because it's newer. I have to be honest that it's so wonderful and amazing to have both connections like that in my life! It's absolutely the best of both worlds.

And the differences only highlight the positives. I spent yesterday all day with Henry, and he was doing some rather unpleasant/tiring tasks for me. But he did them without complaint because he loves me and he wants to be happy. Knowing that he has my back and wants to make my life as easy as possible just makes me feel so loved and happy. And then that we can still have bedrockingly great sex too- how did I wind up with such an amazing husband?

Charles has really been pulling out the stops to make me feel wonderful too. He teasingly told me after he had just eaten my pussy until I saw stars, that he loves me more and that he wouldn't accept my arguing with him as valid because I was all high on endorphins! It was so sweet and silly and romantic that I couldn't help but kiss him and smile.

While some parts of my life have been stressful lately, I'm trying to stay as present as possible and enjoy the amazing moments I have with my two wonderful partners. My heart overflows with love, and my pussy overflows with... well, you know ;)

Wednesday, 8 May 2019

Ovulation

So, despite the fact that I have a Mirena IUD, I still ovulate. I think my body just really likes being pregnant! I have been having some issues with birth control lately that I've got to sort out, but for the meantime, that's what I'm working with- I'll save the nonsexy post for later!

I haven't been writing much, but it's not that I'm not getting up to deviltry- just that I've been too busy to write about it! I haven't missed a date with Charles, although he's been working more which has sucked a little.

Last week, though, when he came over, was more than memorable. Every once in a while I seem to have a very strong ovulation and I just go crazy with hormones. Previous partners have told me that my clit swells to double it's usual size, and I squirt much more often and copiously. And I just can't be satiated- I would fuck all night long. Isn't it good that I have two partners to try and keep up with me?

I was ravenous. I fucked Henry into the ground the night before. We put on some good porn, I sucked his cock, and then he fucked me so long and so good, but I just couldn't come and I was so frustrated. I'll get more into that in another post, because that's pretty rare for me. I grabbed the Hitachi magic wand and was using that while he fucked me and it felt amazing... but not quite enough. I felt like I needed a vaginal orgasm to really hit over the top so I asked him to stop and fist me while I used the Hitachi. And of course my wonderful husband pulled his hard cock out of me and worked hard to give me that pleasure I needed so desperately. He worked his hand into my wide open and dripping cunt and stretched me out until I came so hard and clenched on his fist, and squirted again and again. Although the funny thing about fisting is that it was rather like a plug, so the gush didn't come until he pulled out his hand- now that was quite the sensation!

He's such a good boy, though. I know it makes him happy to make me happy, even if that means I delayed his own pleasure for it. He was so close to cumming that he just had to give his cock a few strokes and he was finished.

I was still craving more, though. He had fallen asleep but my clit was throbbing and my pussy was aching to be filled. Like I said... those times when I ovulate hard, it's a little crazy but it's awesome. I had a little fun with some of my toys while he snored quietly next to me- it was kind of fun :)

And then the next day, I had Charles... I warned him what he was walking into but we were so eager for each other since we hadn't had sex the last time we got together. We went right up to bed and spent the next three hours there attempting to completely dehydrate ourselves! Mmm... so much kissing and licking and sucking... Charles loves making me squirt since he loves to lick it all up but this time me made me cum so hard that it sprayed all over his face! It was pretty awesome :)  And he made me feel so good. After we fucked and he filled me with his cum, I pushed his face down and told him to clean that mess out of my dripping wet pussy.

I was still so sensitive from the hormones and the fucking and orgasms and his tongue on my cunt was just pure bliss. He didn't have to work very hard to clean up his mess because every time he made me orgasm, the spasms pushed his cum out of me and right into his waiting mouth.

Mmm... I really needed that! The only problem is, the more that I fuck, the more that I want to fuck... Death by snu snu?

Wednesday, 17 April 2019

Walking On Sunshine

It's such a beautiful day outside... and I'm feeling pretty sunny, too. I've been having lovely times with my two wonderful men and that can't help but make me feel awesome too.

Henry and I went to a BDSM party on the weekend and had a wonderful time together. He also enjoys being a Top, although he doesn't often have the opportunity. We wound up co Topping a friend of ours together and it was a lot of fun. She's a great bottom to play with and we all had a lot of fun. Henry and I make a great team together so it was easy to relax and just enjoy ourselves. I get a lot of delight out of watching his playful side come out in a sadistic way!

But of course, that means I didn't get to play with Henry... so we have a date planned for this weekend. I'm really looking forward to that!

And I had a wonderful date night with Charles this week, too. The NRE is still so heady sometimes, over 9 months in. It feels so right when we're just lying in bed holding each other, and of course when we're not just holding each other ;)

There's just so much difference between sport fucking and sex with someone you love. At times it's not even in the same ballpark. I enjoy sport fucking and sex with friends, but nothing really tops making love. And I get that with two different men! How did I get so lucky?

The sex was pretty amazing this time around. Charles and I share several kink interests that Henry doesn't, so it's nice to find an outlet for my desires. While Henry will generally submit to what I want even if he's not into it, and that is nice sometimes knowing that he will and making him do what I want... sometimes I really want to indulge in my kinks with someone who is just as eager as I am to enjoy them.

Charles loves eating pussy, and he's quite talented at it, too. I usually want to enjoy his tongue when we're together! But this time I wanted to start off by stroking his cock and teasing him with dirty talk while we were in bed, and drawing things out as long as possible. I told him all the things I want to do to him on vacation, like tie him to the bed and keep him erect and tortured for hours, using his cock and his tongue but not letting him cum until I'm good and ready. His cock seemed to like that idea ;)

When I was done teasing him with my fingers and sucking his cock, I told him to get to work ;)  And he did... such a good boy. I was so sensitive and wanted him so much, and he fucked me with his fingers while he licked my clit. It wasn't long before he started that chain of orgasms and it was SO good. When he finally came up for air I told him that I wanted his cock now, and he told me he thought I'd never ask!

I still love the head of his cock so much... it's so wide and thick that it feels so good when he slides into my wet pussy. After all that teasing, he came almost immediately. And then, like a good boy, he asked me for permission to clean up that mess.

He and I both share a love of using body fluids in kink play, and I love that he's happy and gets turned on my eating creampies. As soon as he caught his breath, he was right back with his tongue in my cunt, cleaning up every last drop. And of course with all that blood flow going to my pussy his mouth felt incredible. I've always loved having my pussy licked after sex because the pleasure is so intense... and Charles knows exactly how I like to be touched.

Oh, the post orgasmic bliss lying in his arms after a lovely, messy, sweaty session of sex. It was a pretty fantastic night.

Friday, 5 April 2019

Sick & Tired

Sorry I haven't been writing much, but I've just been exhausted lately. The past three weeks my health hasn't been great and so I didn't have much time and energy for writing.

Other than that, though, things are continuing to go well. Henry and I have been planning what we want to do for our first anniversary which is coming up next month. Sometimes it's hard to believe that this year has gone by so quickly, and that we won't be newlyweds anymore. I still feel like newlyweds, though! We aren't doing anything too exciting, but we decided we wanted a family sized version of the food we served at our wedding, and I've got a nice bottle of champagne that I've been saving. It'll be a lovely night, I think.

Charles also asked me if I wanted to do something for our anniversary, which is coming up in the summer. It's also hard to believe that we're coming up on that milestone, too. I still feel so much like I'm just getting to know him. But I still get those warm bubbly feelings when I think about him or look at him, and I'm enjoying my time with him very much. He texts me such lovely sweet things that make me feel so good. Yesterday we were being silly and he told me "of course I'm having a good day, I'm listening to good music, enjoying a beer, and talking to my girlfriend." So me being me, I asked if she was cute (he isn't seeing anyone else but it's fun to tease!" He told me no, she's gorgeous :)  It's nice to hear things like that sometimes!

Now if only I start feeling a little better so I can have some more energy... I want to play with my men! We've still had a little sex, but nothing too earthshattering. Always good, though. I am so lucky.

Thursday, 14 March 2019

Basic Needs

I've been reading on various message boards lately and it's really interesting to see how differently people prioritize sex. I think to some, it's the icing on the cake. It's nice, but you also don't really miss it much if it's not there. The cake is way more important. And to some, it's not even the cake- it's air or water!

Sex is one of the big things that people fight about in relationships, and I think that we can easily end up at cross purposes if we don't understand how our partner views things. I read comments from women who are so hurt that their husbands don't just want to cuddle with them, they feel like their husbands only want to touch them to get sex. And then there are husbands who don't understand why their wives are okay with having sex once a month or even less often. And vice versa! I still joke that I have the sexual drive and appetites of a man, and I'm perfectly okay with that!

Please don't misinterpret me as saying that anyone ever owes their partner sex; you don't, ever, unequivocally, for any reason. But that being said, that doesn't mean there aren't consequences to choosing not to have sex with your partner. If one partner is in the "sex is nice once in a while" category and the other is in the "would like it twice a day", at least one of you is going to be very unhappy after a while.

And when you're in a monogamous relationship, a mismatched sex drive puts a lot of pressure on both partners. The one with the lower sex drive might feel obligated to have sex to keep their partner from straying, but duty sex is't exactly great either. And the one with the higher sex drive might feel disconnected intimately from their partner as well as of course having to deal with being horny all the time.

What I don't understand is where the people with mismatched drives seem to come down so hard on porn and masturbation. I actually read someone say that porn is taking your intimate energy away from your marital partner. But if they don't want to have sex with you, then where does that leave you? I've read people's writing that they don't like feeling like a set of genitals to their partner. But if one part of a couple views sex as something that happens when they feel connected, and the other feels that they connect by having sex, there's no easy solution.

To me, sex is one of the basic needs. Being in a monogamous relationship with a partner who has a low sex drive would be intolerable. It would be like them saying to me that I could only eat food with them, but because they're not hungry, then I couldn't eat either. Or that I could only eat what they wanted to have. It just wouldn't work for me- how long would you be happy under those conditions? Sex isn't equally important to everyone, but I am sure I'm not the only person wired this way. I notice an immediate change in myself when I'm getting fucked frequently enough. I'm happier, I sleep better, I'm less irritable... loads of good things.

Just some thoughts of mine. I am so lucky to have my two wonderful men in my life! I haven't seen Charles in over a week because he's been sick, poor guy. I'm hoping to get together with him on the weekend. We've been talking over the phone which is nice but it's just not the same as in person time.

Henry and I have been having a lot of fun together, though! We spent a lovely afternoon with him bound to the four poster bed with some Kink.com porn on the TV (well, you all know where I stand on porn!) and then long, torturous sessions of cock sucking and ass fucking until I finally let him cum. It was wonderful :)

And this morning we've already spent an hour in bed with some of our favourite toys, and now it's time for round two. My pussy is already aching a little but it's so worth it. What a great day! Such a happy me.

Sunday, 24 February 2019

Shaving My Legs

It's funny, as I read back through my blog it seems that I tend to focus on one partner for a while and then switch off to the other. I don't feel like this is happening in my everyday life, though, but it's interesting to see the swirls and eddies in my posts here.

Basically, my everyday life is with Henry. We talk about our short term and long term goals and plans, we have family time, and we have kink and romantic time together. Sometimes the life stuff crowds out the fun stuff for a while and we recognize that a shift needs to be made, and we reprioritize our couple time. I think that happens in every long term relationship, and it's how you respond to it that matters. Henry and I are building a life together; knowing this gives me a comfort and safety and security that means so much to me. I know that things can change (oh, do I ever!) but I trust that we're going to continue working to be together, rather than working to be individuals.

I feel like I can always be myself with Henry. He loves me even if I haven't shaved my legs, or I'm wearing sweatpants and have greasy hair. He loves me when I'm sick. He even loves me when I'm upset and irritable and overwhelmed, although he might not like me very much in that moment! We always say that we like each other most of the time, and I think that's honest and about as good as it gets. I don't think you can genuinely like someone all of the time.

I was having a conversation with a friend and we talked about how most people feel uncomfortable when they see their partners getting all prettied up for a date with a new person. Maybe they lose weight, or wear makeup, or get some stylish new clothes, or they shave their legs in case they might have sex. So, why don't people do this as often with existing partners? It must mean that they are prioritizing the new shiny, right?

My friend had an interesting take on it that makes a lot of sense. We don't get all fancied up for our long term partners because we trust them to see us without all the shine and still love us and find us attractive. I don't shave my legs every day for Henry anymore, because I know he finds me sexy even if I have stubble. But Charles? I'm not sure that I really want him to see me "below average", as it were. I'm okay at this point having him see regular me and not going the extra mile to look better, but beyond that? I think I'd rather give that some more time! :)

Now, it's not that we never should take the time to look specially attractive for our partners, but that comfort and security, trust and love? I think we underestimate the value of that.

I know I've talked about NRE (new relationship energy) versus ERI (established relationship intimacy), and how there are definitely benefits to both. Charles and I had a really good conversation last night and I'm feeling more comfortable in our relationship. It's been seven months now, and I feel like we're finding our own rhythm a bit. It's different than any other relationship I've had before, but I'm starting to realize that every relationship is, I just didn't think of it that way before.

The NRE is still pretty heady with Charles but it's changed. There's less of the overwhelmingness except when we're together. I still have all the intense romantic feelings and desire, but it's dialed back a little. I think that explains why I am feeling less of the insecurity and anxiety. I know Charles loves me. I know he wants to be in this relationship with me. And I feel more comfortable talking about stuff with him. Those are all good things.

We had a really good date night yesterday. He made me a delicious dinner (even better, it was full of food that Henry is allergic to and so I don't get to eat very often!) and then we went upstairs for cuddles and conversation. It was really good connective conversation, too- we both know where we stand and what we want. And then that lovely flush of kink and sexual energy came over us and we spent the next three hours having sex. We got a little more intense and I had him fist me while he was playing with my clit, and when he begged to cum I had him blast all over my breasts and then lick off every drop. It was so hot! And his neck is all covered with bite marks and I love it. Mine :)

I only wish he had a bigger bed, though! I hate having to get a cab home late at night when I'm naked and cuddled up in his bed with him but I can't imagine sharing a double with someone would be all that comfortable for either of us. I hope I can talk him into a bigger bed at some point so I can sleep at his place!

Wednesday, 20 February 2019

Spillover

Henry and I had a lot of external life stress early on in our relationship, so we lost the NRE early and had to struggle to maintain our connection a little. He had some serious health issues, relocation/job issues, and I had to deal with the end of my first marriage. It definitely ended the honeymoon phase between us.

I'll digress a little. I met Charles in the same month I started dating Henry. Part of me draws parallels and wonders if we hadn't had all the life stuff crop up, would Henry and I have felt the way I'm feeling now with Charles? Henry and I had serious NRE when we started, given the intensity of our BDSM play and the amazing sex we had (and still have!). I read back here in my blog and see that I told him I was falling in love at 6 weeks. Reading that now makes me think I was a little nuts and hopped up on endorphins, but I remember being at his place after an amazing scene and a great fuck and being so high on it that I couldn't think of anything else but him. Whatever it was, it was certainly memorable.

So while we didn't get to drag our NRE out for long, what we have now is even more amazing. We have all the comfort and security and knowledge of each other that you get in an established relationship, plus we get the excitement and desire and happiness from spillover NRE and compersion. Henry loves to see me so happy, and I want to make him as happy as I am. It's a wonderful escalating loop of happiness.

I still have my overall best sex with Henry. I've had better individual encounters, but Henry always knows how to push my buttons and takes direction when I need something a little different. I feel safe and secure talking about any of my fantasies because even if he's not into it, he'll happily listen to me talk about it. He truly is my best friend as well as my lover.

We've been having some amazing sex too. Writing this entry got interrupted by a quickie. Totally worth it, by the way :) 

We often like to have porn on while we fuck, both for background noise and to watch and comment on to each other. The other day we found a video from kink.com that made us both really hot. It was from the sex and submission section and hit a lot of our favourite buttons- D/s sex, impact play, clothespins, predicament bondage. I was dripping wet watching it and telling Henry how much fun it would be if it was him in place of that pretty young girl and how much I wanted to do all those things to him.

My sex drive kicked up so high, as it often does when my power exchange desires get aroused. I jumped on the Motorbunny for a little bit while Henry was lying in bed stroking his cock and enjoying the video and the dirty talk. I had a couple of big orgasms while I was telling him that he would look so hot bent over while I spanked him and then fucked him, and then I decided to join him back in the bed.

He knew just what I wanted and he started to play with my pussy. Henry is a musician, so he really knows what he's doing with his hands. I love feeling him stretching me open and touching all the sensitive places inside my pussy and then stroking my clit. He always makes me feel so good and I was just gushing with wetness. I lost track of time while I was cumming over and over when he slid his cock inside me instead, and fucked me rhythmically while he played with my clit. It was so good! He knows exactly what I like.

I told him that I wanted to fuck him the way the submissive in the video was getting fucked, so when my legs were a little less wobbly, I strapped on his favourite cock- our big thick 11" realistic one, and bent him over the bed and worked it slowly into his tight little hole. Except that he was more open than usual after all the play we'd been doing and it didn't take much effort before I started fucking him hard and he came so fast. I love fucking him and making him feel as good as he makes me feel!

I was still turned on though from the videos, so I asked him to pull out the fucking machine for me while he went to get cleaned up. I turned on the fucking machine and used my Volta vibrator and pounded my pussy while I came over and over and over.  I wanted to orgasm until I couldn't anymore, and it was awesome :)

We were both exhausted afterwards but I think that video is going to make it into our Favourites section!