Tuesday, 22 January 2019

Little Silly Moments

Much as I enjoy writing about sex (and I do!), there's lots of other stuff going on in my life and I thought I'd share some little vignettes that make me laugh or happy.

A few weeks ago when Charles spent the night here, he left some of his toiletries in the bathroom. Henry noticed and made a joke that he was "planting a flag" and couldn't resist teasing Charles the next time he saw him. Charles had actually forgotten them, not that it really mattered to us; we don't mind a few extra products in the bathroom. As a matter of fact, Henry had suggested that Charles could leave a change of clothes here if he wanted to make things easier if he stayed over unexpectedly. My husband isn't territorial, thankfully. But it was hilarious to see the look on Charles' face when Henry was teasing him!

In a similar vein, my men can just be so silly sometimes. When I'm in bed cuddling with Henry, he sometimes grabs some part of my body and says "MINE!" I don't usually mind, it's adorable and silly. And somehow simultaneously and without discussing it, both of them have started doing it! I was in bed with Charles and he was stroking my leg and he said he claimed it. I told him that he and Henry were going to have to work that out. Do I see a Sharpie in my future while they stake their claims? I don't normally play that way, but it's fun to indulge them sometimes!

It's been miserably cold here lately; everyone has been getting chapped lips even with the humidifier running. I haven't resorted to chapstick yet because I'm not really a fan of the texture. Sometimes I have sensory issues, so I generally don't use products like hand creams or moisturizers or whatnot. I only use lube because it's required sometimes but I hate actually touching it. Now, actual body fluids are another matter! I'm happy to indulge in those. But, I digress! Some days I get to spend time with both Henry and Charles. When I kissed Charles, my lips felt funny afterwards, and I asked him if he was wearing chapstick, and he said yes. So suddenly, I was wearing chapstick too- I really like kissing :)  On a different day, I noticed that some of Henry's had rubbed off on me. It hasn't happened yet, but I'm rather wondering about how interesting secondary transfer is going to be! How will they feel about something winding up with each other's chapstick on their lips? Sometimes it's funny being a hinge in a relationship!

One of the other little low key things I have been enjoying lately is my shower with Henry. We pretty much shower together every day, if schedules permit. It's become a little ritual for us; an opportunity for mindfulness and intimacy together. I think that D/s has such an edge in maintaining mindfulness in relationships; instead of going through our day and not really connecting, building a ritual around even the simple things is a reminder for us to check in with each other and strengthen our connection. It's one of the things I treasure. When we shower, Henry washes my hair. We have a standing joke now that he has "broken" me- I no longer have an automatic pilot setting for doing it myself. We all have those things in our lives that we just do and don't really have to think about it. Washing my hair used to be one of those things. Now, if I don't pay conscious attention to it, something goes wrong, which is rather embarrassing! He loves it, though. The few times I've showered alone and been distracted, I managed to 1) wash my hair with body wash, 2) wash my hair with shampoo, but forget to rinse it, and 3) forget to wash it at all. I think I managed it correctly once, when I insisted I actually pay attention to it! Oh well- I much prefer it when he washes it anyway. I also like that he will scrub me with body wash, too. I love the feel of him massaging it into my back and shoulders, over my arms, down my collarbone, and of course he can't resist copping that feel. He tells me that he's got to make sure that my breasts are very clean, right? Hard to argue with that!

Of course, I have been having some great sex with both my men! Not quite as much as I'd like, but is it ever as much as I'd like? My sex drive far outstrips theirs, so thank goodness for polyamory and polysexuality! I think I need a host like in the show Westworld (which I've really been enjoying, by the way). The only question then, would I get a male or a female host, or can I please please please have two? :)

Sunday, 6 January 2019

Warm Salty Tears

I thought about stringing you along a bit with that title, but I'm smiling so much I just can't pull off the tease.

Charles came over for a planned overnight this weekend and we had a wonderful time. We had decided that it was finally time to step up the intensity in our BDSM a little. I had been taking things slowly with him because he was pretty much brand new, and he was definitely experiencing sub frenzy with me. While I want very much to play hard with him and ride those extremes, the last thing I want to do is damage him. And there's no rush; we are so good together and we're both happy with how things are going, so there will be another chance to explore further.

But this weekend he wanted me to push him a little. So I decided to make some of his fantasies come true. He loves the feel of nylon and lace and silk, so I had him bring over a garter belt and a pair of stockings. We went up to the bedroom where my spanking bench was waiting, and I had him strip and put on his sexy clothes while I watched him. Charles is just as reactive as Henry is, in his own way, and I really enjoy that. I laid out my impact toys on the table; a stingy knotted flogger, a crop, a tawse, a stiff leather strap. 

When he was ready, I clipped some clover clamps to his very sensitive nipples and pulled on the chain to make him moan. My spanking bench is alongside some full length mirrors, so I pulled him to the mirror by his hair and made him look at himself; wearing the sexy black stockings and garter belt, clamped nipples, and then I wrote SLUT on his stomach and told him that he was my little slut tonight.

I told him to get on the bench and started warming him up with my tawse. It was lovely listening to his moans and watching him push his ass out for more as he started to turn pink, and then red. I paused occasionally to bite his neck, or pull on the nipple clamps, or whisper in his ear how sexy the heat coming off his ass was, or to stroke his cock. When it was time to take the nipple clamps off, I told him to count to three... and then I pulled them off on 2. I laughed and reminded him that nothing is ever going to be what he expects with me, even if he thinks he knows. His gasps and moans were making me so wet.

He asked me if I was enjoying this for me, or if it was all service for him. I smiled and told him that I'm no service Top; that hurting him was so delicious for me. And I slid his finger into my dripping wet cunt to show him that. Like a good boy, he licked his fingers clean before getting back on the spanking bench so I could push him further and further into his masochistic headspace. 

First the tawse, then the flogger, then the crop when I wanted to focus on very precise spots, and finally my strap when I wanted to make him beg for mercy. Soon there were warm salty tears dripping down his cheeks and I licked them off while I held him by the throat. He begged me to continue and I spanked him with my bare hands over the bright red spots on his ass until his legs were trembling and he couldn't stay on the bench anymore. That last moment of the scene was so intense that it felt like an orgasm to both of us. The Domspace was so, so good for me.

Then it was time to climb in bed for some cuddles and water so that he could come down gently. When he started to come back to himself, he told me that he wanted to serve me, to thank me for the beating. I gave him a seductive smile and spread my legs, and he dove right in. Enthusiasm is such a turn on and Charles always eats my pussy like he's a starving man. And he will stay right there until I either stop him or else he gets cramped or uncomfortable. So many orgasms and so much pleasure... it was wonderful.

The day wasn't over yet. I smelled wonderful smells coming from the kitchen, where Henry had been cooking dinner for the three of us. It was absolutely delicious, and we all chatted and spent some time together while we ate. Henry asked Charles to please try and wear me out a little, and Charles laughed and said that he would try! It's so awesome that we can all be open about everything together. I can't help the fantasies about bareback threesomes. Maybe one day ;)

After dinner, Charles and I went upstairs to cuddle and talk about the scene and what we had enjoyed. But it wasn't too long before I felt his hard cock leaking against my stomach and my pussy was tingling. We had rough, primal sex that was so satisfying! So many delicious orgasms, and then his nice thick cockhead pushing into my wet cunt over and over and over...

We spent the night together in my bed, and had time for just a little fun in the morning before he had to leave for work. I'm still riding the high today and can't wait to see him again soon. And tonight, perhaps Henry...

I am a lucky, lucky woman, and I want to enjoy every single moment.

Wednesday, 2 January 2019

Happy New Year!

What a wonderful new year's this has been. It's certainly off to a great start. I am exhausted but I don't think I've been this happy in a while.

Henry and I threw a small house party, just a casual thing with music and apps and drinks, and we watched the ball drop on TV. Several friends came over, and so did Charles. It was really fantastic having both my men there celebrating with me. I told them that I felt so lucky. When we were in the kitchen prepping the appetizer platters, I kissed Henry and said I love YOU and then I kissed Charles and said and I love YOU. Both of them came back for seconds. It felt so good. I've never felt surrounded by this much love before, where it was just omnipresent and relaxed and comfortable and happy.

Hilariously, one of my neighbours decided to drop by. She and her husband cheat on each other regularly but they got really confused when I told them that we are open. I think it just doesn't make sense in their paradigm! So when she stopped by and I introduced her to everyone... I said "This is Charles," and you should have seen the look on her face. She kind of stammered "oh! I've heard so much about you!" and then kept staring at him like he was an endangered species, which I guess maybe he is :)  And I'd already had a few drinks so I felt like being playful, and while she was there I took every reasonable opportunity to be touching or kissing both of my men. All the other friends were poly or kinky themselves, so it wasn't anything out of the normal for them! Her eyes just kept getting wider and wider though- it was a lot of fun.

At midnight, I got two hugs and kisses. Then Henry decided to go sit in the hot tub and relax with some music, and Charles and I went upstairs to ring in the new year together. We were up for nearly four hours having so much sex. I remember telling him to stop fucking me at one point because I wasn't done orgasming! And he's such a good boy, he pulled out and started to lick my wet pussy until I came over and over and squirted in his mouth. He licked up every drop like I'm a delicacy. And we did it all again when we woke up in the morning on January 1.

We spent New Year's Day just hanging out together, the three of us. It was fun and relaxing. Henry made breakfast for all of us. We played games and spent some time in the hot tub as a threesome- nothing naughty but definitely good times.

When Charles went home, Henry and I went upstairs to watch a movie in bed. He picked Short Bus, which is definitely a sexy movie but also a little strange. But watching everyone fucking started to turn us on and soon Henry was starting to tease me slowly until I was dripping wet and moaning. He got me off again and again and again... I lost count quickly and just floated from orgasm to orgasm, and that was just from his fingers! When he finally slammed his cock into my waiting cunt it felt amazing. We fucked scissors style so that he could play with my clit easily and it didn't take much before I was cumming on his cock over and over and over until I was seeing stars. And he stayed hard and kept it up for nearly an hour of orgasms and cock pounding my sloppy wet pussy, and squishing sounds, and fingering my clit before he finally shot his load deep inside me with a growl.

I told him that if he was planning to keep that up for 2019 that neither of us would live to see 2020! That was by far the best sex I've had in a long time. And he knows what happens to my sex drive when I get well fucked... it doesn't satisfy the beast- it makes me want even more :)

I feel so lucky. It's going to be a very good year!

Friday, 28 December 2018

Holiday Parties

Well, usually everyone is all exhausted with all the running around we do during the holidays. Work parties, families, holiday get togethers... sometimes the level of social required can be overwhelming! Of course, I'm not the world's most social person myself either, so I enjoy my down time.

Henry and I did go to our favourite holiday party, though. It's a BDSM house party with just the right atmosphere and great people to have a good time. We enjoy the socializing almost as much as the play, which is saying something!

As a special treat for the holidays, the host had burlesque performers come in- it was so sexy watching attractive men putting on a fabulously erotic show for us all. One of them must have had on ten different pairs of sexy underwear! I certainly enjoyed watching him peel off each pair and every time I thought we had come to the end! I had never seen a burlesque show before and I definitely enjoyed it.

To all my readers; I hope you are having a lovely holiday season, and see you in the new year!

Friday, 14 December 2018


Not too much fun lately. Henry and I have both been sick, so lots of cuddles, not much fun time. What can you do, right? It's that time of year. But it still fills me with contentment because when I see my husband, I see the man that I am happy sharing my life with. He is the first person I want to talk to when something interesting or exciting happens, and the last person I want to say goodnight to. I feel like he loves me and appreciates me for who I am, faults and all, and that I can just be my weird self and it's all okay.

Doesn't everyone deserve a love like that? And, of course, he's great in the sack, too ;) I certainly got lucky when it comes to him. I don't know what forever will bring... I know what can happen now, all too clearly. But I was willing to roll the dice on it with him. I'm still a hopeless romantic at heart, what can I say?

A friend made a comment that left me feeling thinky, so I wanted to share that here; perhaps it will help some of you as well.

You and your partner are looking at a glass bowl containing a fish. You look at it and think "What a pretty fish!". Your partner looks at it and thinks "What a pretty bowl!". You're both looking at the same thing, but you're taking away two entirely different things. On your own, you would never likely appreciate the beauty of the bowl; you're caught up in the fish. Together, you get to enjoy each other's unique perspectives and insights; your differences can become strengths when you share your thoughts and ideas, as long as you don't get into a yelling match "No, it's a pretty FISH! Who cares about your stupid bowl!"

Henry and I are very different people, with different likes, dislikes, and interests. The thing that we share so solidly though is our desire to make things work together. To respect each other as people, to assume good intentions even when things go wrong. To leave space for us to be ourselves. At the end of the day, it doesn't matter whether you think the fish or the bowl is pretty; what matters is that you got the chance to experience it from your partner's viewpoint, that you listened to what they were saying, and validated them even if you don't agree.

Sometimes life isn't sexy, but relationship skills are important too, right? :)

Things are continuing to go well with Charles, too. The other day, we were cuddled up on the couch, and he told me that he loves me, too. Like I said about Henry, there isn't much that beats hearing that someone you love, loves you back, the very first time. Definitely a happy making moment.

The holidays are going to be pretty busy, so I'm not sure how much I'm going to get up to. I'm looking forward to a big dungeon party with Henry tomorrow night, though. After that? We'll see...

Sunday, 2 December 2018

The Two Person Threesome

Ah, birthdays in a poly vee are awesome- I get TWO romantic and sexy date days instead of one! I'm such a lucky woman, aren't I?

Henry and I shared my last slice of birthday cake (white chocolate raspberry mousse, it was absolutely delicious!) and then he told me to give him a few minutes and then come up to the bedroom.

We enjoy having sex with porn on in the background- it's nice to have the auditory stimulation. Sometimes the little bit that kicks me over the edge is listening to someone else orgasm! We have a few go-to pornos that we both enjoy- we joke they are our "friends" visiting again. Fun times :)  He had one of our favourite videos booted up and a bunch of toys laid out on the bed.

Henry gave me a sexy, lingering kiss and told me to relax and get comfortable on the bed. At times, I very much enjoy being a pillow princess! He lay down beside me and turned on the volume on the TV, and then we started kissing, and slow, sensual touches that drive me crazy with a slow burn. Soon my pussy was wet and aching and I was kissing him back passionately and rocking my hips towards him.

He slid his fingers inside me and started to stretch my wet cunt open while he played with my clit. It wasn't too long before I was squirting and moaning with pleasure. He grinned at me, and pulled out a new toy I hadn't seen before. Henry had decided to surprise me with a fucking machine! Ooh. I wasn't sure how much I'd like it, since I tend not to be a dildo kind of girl and I much prefer human beings to masturbation. But my pussy is aching to be filled and my clit is begging for attention... so I'm willing to give him a chance ;)

Ohhh. That nice thick cock started ramming in and out of my cunt while Henry was kissing me passionately and teasing my nipples. It felt just like we're having a threesome, except there aren't quite enough hands. But the sensation of being filled with a thick hard cock and being fucked just the way I want it while he overwhelms my other senses is so good... I started to get that sexy haze in my mind and I couldn't think about anything else but how good my body was feeling and how incredible it all was. There was nothing in the world but his lips and his fingers and his tongue and that big hard cock rhythmically pounding my pussy while I listened to the moans and grunts and cries of the orgy on TV.

When he started to rub my clit while sucking on one of my nipples, my body spasmed and I came so hard and it lasted so long that I thought I was going to pass out. So much amazing pleasure... one wrung out birthday girl.

I'm not sure I'd enjoy a fucking machine as a masturbatory aid, since penetration is the least important bit of sex to me, but as an adjunct to a threesome, I would highly recommend it! For all those couples out there who are considering inviting someone new into your bedroom, give this a try first- you won't regret it!

Monday, 26 November 2018

Happy Birthday to Me!

So things are really, really good right now. I don't think I've been this content, let alone happy, in a while.

This weekend was my birthday, and we had a big open house party for people to drop in and hang out and have food and drinks and socialize. The house got crowded, but it was nice to have so many people who wanted to celebrate with me. I felt loved and special :)  My friends all know that we're poly and kinky, since the majority of them are part of the BDSM community and the other ones have been around long enough to love me anyway. So Charles was there too, and as my boyfriend, not just a regular guest. I always love it when I can be affectionate to both my partners without having to worry about people's reactions.

Since we were drinking, lots of people wound up crashing in my living room. I invited Charles to stay the night, and Henry suggested that we take the master bedroom for the night and he'd get me the next day. That seemed fair to me!

We were tired and a little drunk, but Charles and I wound up naked in bed and kissing. We talked a little and soon his hard cock was leaking on me and I started teasing him. He said to me, "Well, I'm in bed with a beautiful woman, what did you expect to happen?" One thing led to another and soon we were having passionate sex. It was just so good to be lying in his arms and not to have to worry about one of us needing to go home.

And while I think he had a pretty good idea of how I've been feeling, I am indeed a big fan of communicating directly with words. But I didn't want to set up a big thing with pressure and expectations, so I waited until we were cuddling after sex and deciding to go to sleep. When I said goodnight, I also whispered in his ear, "I love you."

Charles grabbed my face and started kissing me in a way I can only describe as happy and enthusiastic- kinda like a puppy? And then he said "I know you want to go to sleep, but you can't drop a bomb like that on a man and then just pull away!" I told him that I just didn't want to create expectation or make things awkward. He kissed me again and then we went to sleep.

All my relationships feel differently; I've noticed even my NRE has been feeling different this go around, and I think I'm just more conscious if it now so it likely was before, too. This love isn't the same as the one I feel for Henry. It's unique to my connection with Charles, and right now it's just growing. But I think that he and I have something together, and I'm so glad that I met him and have him in my life.

I told Henry about that chat afterwards, and he got all playful with me and started teasing me about "catching the feels". But he was happy that I'm so happy. I'm glad I can share moments like that with him. Having him as my husband is pretty wonderful!

In the morning, I woke up next to Charles and we had pretty amazing morning sex. He joked that I'm going to fuck him to death! I just find it amusing that I have two boys and my sex drive outstrips both of them put together! I see why women choose to become cougars; they want to have a boy toy who can just keep going and going and going like the Energizer bunny ;)   Thankfully, I don't think I've hit quite that age, but both my partners are younger, so call me what you like!

And then the next day I spent with Henry- to be continued...