Tuesday, 30 October 2018

My Cock is Bigger Than Yours...

Mmm... it's so wonderful to have a live in 24/7 submissive sometimes. I love having Henry around to play with whenever I want him :)

When we woke up this morning, I gave him a little list of things to get together and preparations to make, because I told him that his ass was mine. He was a good boy- in short order, there were towels on the bed, gloves, lube, chain, cuffs, and all kinds of toys. And of course he was waiting for me with his collar. I love listening to the tag I had custom made for him jingle against the D ring on his collar- just another audible reminder that he is mine.

I slid a lubed up butt plug into his ass, and then had him present to me on all fours. Apparently, a spanking can produce a lovely sensation with the newer style magnetic butt plugs that feel like they move inside you! Henry doesn't normally love impact play, but he certainly gets quite a bit of pleasure from it when it makes him feel like he's getting fucked. And I love the pink spots that start coming up on his butt cheeks and thighs when I work him over.

Henry has been such a good boy lately, that I wanted to focus on his pleasure today. It is nice to spoil the ones we love, isn't it? :)  So when I was done with him, I put on the leather wrist and ankle cuffs and had him lie down on the bed. Our wonderful wooden four poster bed has eye bolts sunk into the frame- discreet, but easy bondage when I hooked the chains on to his wrists. I had him fold his legs up straight so that I could hook the ankle cuffs to the wrist cuffs, and then I had easy access to all the bits I might want to play with! His cock was already standing at attention and leaking all over himself, and it was fun to tease him that now he was immobilized, that I was going to go and leave him like that. He couldn't reach his cock if he wanted to, let alone escape the bondage.

And then I pulled out the butt plug slowly, leaving his ass empty and begging to be filled. I told him that one day I would have a lineup of people waiting outside to use him, one after the other. To fuck his ass or his mouth and then make room for the next person who wanted him. His cock was as hard as a steel rod when I was telling him that while I considered charging for his services, that I was sure I'd be getting asked for a refund because his ass would be so loose after all the fucking he'd get!

I put on my harness, and grabbed one of our favourite cocks- a lovely, big, thick 11" dildo. His ass was just begging for it and he moaned so loudly when I filled him up. I wanted to use him the way the strangers would use him, fuck him without mercy... and he loved every minute of it. It wasn't long before he came in a hot wet rush. His cock stayed hard, though, so the fucking didn't stop. His eyes were closed and I was telling him that now the next person was going to fuck him and my hips kept rocking that dildo into his hungry little ass. He took every inch of it until I was satiated and his brains had been fucked out.

Such a good boy :)  I love my husband, and I love making him smile.

Saturday, 27 October 2018

This Cat Has Claws...

Continuing on the alley cat theme from my last post... no one said that I was going to be all cuddles and purring! The more I fall for someone romantically, the more I want to hurt them and Dominate them if there is that energy between us. It's like I can smell my prey :)

It was date night with Charles again, and he was tired so we hadn't planned to have sex, but decided to go and cuddle in bed and chat. Skin on skin is always a lovely thing. So we started off just being in each others' arms and chatting. Relaxing and enjoyable but not particularly sexy.

Then the conversation started to shift... I had asked him to finish going over his BDSM checklist and pick three activities on it that he would like to try. I've been taking things really slowly because I don't want to be That Dom who grooms their partner into thinking things need to be a certain way, or that they have to try stuff before they're ready, or if they can't give informed consent because they don't know the potential risks. Also, Charles in particular tends to get spacey really easily, so I don't want to manipulate him into doing things when he's in that cloud.

He said he was feeling clearheaded, and did I have some things to show him? I took out some claws and sensory toys, and a low temp wax candle and did just a little taste test of both. He definitely liked both of them, so that was a good start. He also mentioned some things he had been wanting to try and we talked about that a little.

But, it kicked up the temperature in the room just a little. The more feelings I'm developing for him, the harder it is to keep the intensity of my D/s and kink desires on a leash (no pun intended!). While I can do kink stuff just fine on its own, when I have romantic feelings for someone and there's this certain type of energy between us... it's so difficult to not want. I was struggling to figure out how to complete that sentence. The word that springs to mind is possession. I want all of them, in every way I can have them.

The talking slowed down and it transitioned to passionate kisses and sensual touch. I normally have trouble focusing on just one thing, normally I'm thinking about at least 2-3 different things at once so I really prize being wholly in the moment. I really, really wanted to tell him that I love him. It was almost pounding in my head when we were looking in each other's eyes. But I couldn't quite figure out how. Neither of us were speaking... just the kisses and touches and then the pauses to look into each other's eyes.

So I decided to distract him a little and just kinda slide it in. He loves biting, so I leaned over to whisper in his ear knowing he'd be focused on anticipating the bite. I told him that I'm falling for him, and I heard him suck in his breath sharply, and then I started to bite his neck and he was just gone, begging me to bite him more. He told me afterwards that in that moment he was wanting so badly to be mine, that he would have done anything for me. (hence the reason for my caution about the BDSM stuff!)

It just felt so intense in the moment and I think that I wanted to possess him as much as he wanted to be mine. I knew he wasn't up for sex, but I asked him how tired his tongue was! I needed to orgasm so badly. And it was so wonderful when he helped me out with that! I nearly came with the first touch of his tongue on my clit. I was so worked up from all the talk about BDSM activities... and all my desires for him. I told him that I wanted to tie him up and make him cry and we both sucked in a ragged breath at the image. I grabbed his hair and started to grind my pussy on his face while he licked me as though I was the most delicious treat he'd ever had... and then I squirted all over him. Such a good boy, he made sure to lick up every drop.

He had to leave not too long afterwards, but sadly, reality often tends to intrude on fun. But I'm still wrapped in that golden bubble right now and feeling pretty awesome about things. NRE got one hell of a kick today. I'm still not sure where I am on that spectrum of is this still NRE or is it love? But I told Henry I loved him at 6 weeks... sometimes I wonder if I just fall in love really easily. I don't do things by halves.

But for now, things are just really good, and I needed that. Golden days and silver nights...

Sunday, 21 October 2018


Both my men really enjoy cooking. I have to admit, that I've really been enjoying it lately! When I was over at Charles' house and delicious smells were emanating from the kitchen, I joked that I felt like the local alley cat, stopping by for a meal. And of course, he might just get lucky that I was in heat...

But it certainly is nice to sit down to a fabulous home cooked meal, a good bottle of wine, and a great conversation. I like the sex. I like the activities we do together. But the part that shows me that we're really connecting and it's not just about the hormones is the communication. I consider myself to be sapiosexual, and good conversation about interesting topics is what really attracts me. I don't really have a type, but there are some qualities that have to be there to get my interest- and that's near the top of the list.

I've been experiencing my NRE a little differently this time around, but granted, it's been several years now since I've ridden that train and I've had my share of mental health issues that might have been affecting things. Funny how I'm feeling a lot better lately, isn't it? :)

The NRE is flickering in and out a bit, rather than being omnipresent. But it's so good when it's there, and when it's not, I can attend to other areas in my life. I'm actually finding this to fit in with my life much better, and I'm not worrying about it anymore. I feel more balanced. I can dive in and enjoy those golden moments, where nothing else in the world exists but the two of us. And when I have other things on the go, I can devote my attention to those things without my mind being too distracted.

But the good moments are indeed, very, very good. It gets difficult to behave myself sometimes, because Charles is very new to BDSM, and I want to take things very slowly to be sure that he knows what he's saying yes to, and that he wants to do the things. But the NRE has started to unleash that part of me that wants to do all the things to him. It makes me greedy to have it all at once, now. I want to spank him and make him cry and do awful degrading things and give him so much pleasure. I can keep my predator on a leash for now... but not for too long!

I voiced that while we were having sex yesterday and his cock was leaking all over me. I reminded him that one day I'm going to make him clean all that up with his tongue and he took my hand and licked off his precum while he looked into my eyes. It was so sexy... he told me that it tasted of us, that he loves the taste of me. I have a number of fetishes about consuming body fluids so that was one big turn on!

Not abusing that trust and vulnerability is so important to me, though. Charles gets spacey so easily. I don't know if it's a version of subspace, but it certainly seems so to me. He drifts there so quickly when I bite his neck. I love biting- Henry says it's kissing with a winner :)  I tell him I just never got past that point in my life where you say, I licked it so it's mine, but instead I have graduated to biting!

I told him last night to take his time and explore my body, learn the way I like to be touched. It was so hot, and I know he liked listening to the sounds that I make when I'm enjoying himself. My pussy was so wet... it wasn't long before I was squirting all over his fingers. And then he dove right in and started to lick up all that wetness he made. It's so sexy to see how much he enjoys licking my cunt! I am not sure I've ever experienced it to this extent before. I've had partners who love eating pussy, like Allen, but not one who made me feel like I was a delicious treat they were getting to enjoy! He fed me dinner, and I provided dessert ;)

It felt so good when I finally told him to fuck me... I love when he rubs his cock against my labia and clit tantalizingly before he spreads open my pussy with his thick cockhead and fills me up. My pussy was making squishy sounds while he was sliding his cock in and out, in and out. He has a bit of a gentle upwards curve so he rubs against the walls of my pussy and it feels amazing. And it's always so much fun when he begs me to cum...and I decide yes or no. Sometimes it's fun to leave them wanting, wouldn't you say?

Friday, 19 October 2018

My New Favorite Toy

It's been a while now, but crowning a new favorite toy isn't something that one should rush into, right? We have to do a lot of experimentation... over and over... different speeds and tempos and pressure and now I'm getting a wet pussy!

When Henry and I were on our honeymoon, we stopped in at the Museum of Sex. It wasn't too exciting at first- it looked a lot like what we could see on Fetlife for free. It did get better once we got out of the photographs and into the exhibits. And I gotta say, the little porno theatre with the weird nun porn was definitely a strange experience with an eclectic group of strangers!

We did take a stop through the gift shop, though, and we decided to treat each other to new toys for our honeymoon. Both were great choices and we're very happy with them! I picked this one:

I love the Volta, by Fun Factory. It wasn't a cheap toy (I think it was about $140), but it is so much fun in so many ways! Obviously, the split "lips" make it great for clit stimulation, but you can slide it down your labia and into your vagina and the curved shape works perfectly for that. The bump near the handle will still hit your clit while you're using it for internal stimulation. It also has a bunch of different settings, but I tend to prefer (with most vibrating toys), the standard constant setting at various intensities, rather than the different patterns of vibration.

Lately, this has definitely been the toy I've gone to lately when I'm turned on and neither of my boys is around.

Henry and I have been going through our toy box lately and getting rid of old or damaged toys, looking at what we'd like to acquire, and just generally having some fun sorting things out. I'm not being compensated for writing this review (I did pay for the toy myself), but I thought that some of you might like a toy recommendation either for yourselves, or for a gift for that special woman in your life.

If anyone would like to send me something special, I've got an Amazon wish list, and you would certainly get a nice thank you for thinking of me ;)

Monday, 8 October 2018

The Most Amazing Day

Have I mentioned that I love my husband? :D

We had such a wonderful day yesterday! I'm not sure we've actually had such a full day of debauchery before, but it was amazing. We're definitely going to have to do it again as long as we make sure we have enough time for recovery!

We had discussed that we wanted a day to reinforce our D/s connection, plus we wanted some playtime and sexy fun. So that's exactly what we did. Twelve straight hours of intimacy and kinky fun, with a dinner break.

It started in the morning, when I locked his collar around his neck, and a leather parachute around his balls and clipped some weights to it. Then I added clothespins all over his balls, and told him to cook breakfast- pancakes and bacon. I adore watching naked submissives cooking for me- and watching him squirm away from the stove when the bacon popped was hilarious! His cock was already leaking all over the clothespins.

After I ate, I slowly removed the clothespins and his parachute so that he could eat, too. We moved over to the couch where he gave me a lovely pedicure. Which doesn't sound so very kinky until you realize that he was wearing a Humbler and a butt plug, and his wrists were cuffed together. It was delightful to watch! While my toes were drying, I bought out my lovely strap and turned his ass and thighs pink so that he wouldn't be too comfortable sitting down later.

We went upstairs for a quick shower together, where he washed my hair. It's one of our little rituals together that just brings in the D/s. I put his collar back on when we got out, and then it was time for a little snack. I have always found it funny when he has to work a little harder for his food, and he enjoys playing along. So I inserted an anal hook and tied it to his collar, put him on his stomach and cuffed his hands together behind his back. And on his plate? Little round crackers, sliced meat, and sliced cheese. He was so cute making little sandwiches with his mouth! Of course, I enjoyed mine properly at the table... with my feet using his ass as a rest.

And then onto the kinky part of the day... we went upstairs and I put a blindfold on him before spending the next two hours doing sensory play. I kept changing them up... everything from soft furs to vampire gloves to leather floggers to a crop to a plastic brush to titanium claws. So much fun to watch him wiggle and squirm! And of course, to occasionally hit the top of the anal hook with a vibrator and watch the gasp as the vibrations went all the way down the hook. He begged me to suck his cock, and I laughingly denied him

Henry had really wanted a day where he could go into subspace and just relax... he was a good portion of the way there! But I figured that hook needed to come out, and he'd need a break to rehydrate and use the washroom. It wasn't long before I had him back on the bed, and this time, I chained him to our four poster so that he wasn't going anywhere! I left the blindfold off this time because I knew he was going to squirm too much for it to stay in place.

And then I pulled out our lovely violet wand. We have so much fun with electrical play- I knew I was going to show him a wonderful time. And believe me, I was enjoying myself so much I was leaving wet spots on the bed! It wasn't that long before he was gone... eyes rolling back in his head and making the most wonderful sounds. I love watching his reactions! We played for two more hours before I brought him back to earth, wrapped him in his fuzzy blanket, and unclipped the chains. We cuddled in bed while I ordered dinner to be delivered, and turned on a romantic comedy for our break. Cuddles, bonding, and pizza- what a combination :)

Of course, after a whole day of kinky play, we weren't going to forget the orgasms! Henry knew he wasn't going to last long, so he used his hands to get me to some amazing orgasms. My pussy was so sensitive I thought I was going to black out. So good.... I pushed him down and strapped on a dildo, and fucked his ass while he stroked his cock.

It was a wonderful, amazing day, full of love and kink and Dominance and trust and just general good times. I adore my husband! :)

Monday, 1 October 2018

Moving Along...

I really love NRE. It's so awesome to be out with my new boyfriend to BDSM community events, where it's totally okay for me to be all over him in public. We hold hands most of the time, I kiss him or run my fingers over his cheek or down his arm. Touch is my primary love language, just ahead of acts of service, so I enjoy the casual shows of affection. Not to mention that while we're not shy about our relationship style and I hate being in the closet, it's certainly easier to be "out" in some places than others.

Although that does remind me of an interesting story from the other day. John and I are still close friends, even though we aren't romantic anymore. We hang out occasionally, and I was going over for the evening and decided to bring some food over. Charles works in a restaurant, so Henry and I decided to pick the food up from his place. It was rather funny stopping in and asking the hostess to go get him from the back so we could say hi when we picked up our order and he gave me a hug and a kiss in front of the employees. So- I went there with my husband to pick up food from my boyfriend to take over to my ex boyfriend's house. Life is complicated and wonderful all at once. I'm sure some of my readers would have enjoyed that situation! Keep in mind, I don't ever take my wedding rings off, either. I don't like the concept of taking them off to become someone else's woman. I'm not property and I wear my rings because they're pretty, and because I am always married, even when I'm with someone else. They're a symbol of that.

Charles and I have done some chatting about BDSM, but I knew there was an introductory workshop coming up so I held off on any real kink before I could take him to it. The workshop was really well done by very experienced presenters, and while he says he knew most of what was covered from his research, at least we knew that we were on the same page now which is definitely a good start.

And we got to spend the whole day together, which was pretty wonderful. He is a very busy man, so it's not often that he has no responsibilities for that much time. We went to the workshop, then back to his place where he cooked me a delicious dinner and spent the rest of the evening in bed. He put satin sheets on his bed in the hopes that he'd be entertaining me that night!

The NRE is still so overwhelming. I want to kiss and touch him constantly. I love the feel of his naked skin on mine. We often take it slowly when we have sex, just to keep enjoying each other and taking little breaks to stick with the caressing and less with the orgasm making. It's slow and passionate and oh so good. And then I feel his hard cock rubbing against my oh so wet and open cunt and it's hard to bite back a moan of desire.

While we haven't gotten much into the BDSM yet, now that he's been to the workshop and we have some more time to talk over things, I'm looking forward to adding more to our sex life. The dark predator in me has started to come out a little. I left his neck just covered with bite marks because I love the way he spaces out when he gets so aroused. It's hot knowing that I was the one to get him in that state! Then I grab him by the hair and pull his lips to mine for a passionate kiss... Mmm. I'm getting wet just remembering all the highlights!

His cock is just about perfect, and I've fucked one or two in my life ;)  I love the big thick cockhead that stretches my pussy so deliciously. He's got the upwards curve that I love, too, which hits my G spot when he slides his cock in and out of me. And I love that he stops, tantalizingly, in between strokes so that I get the full sensation of him spreading me open every time he slides back into me.

For now, life is sweet.