Monday, 18 March 2013

A nice way to wake up...

People who know me know that I am NOT a morning person. Not in the slightest. I miss the days where I could stay up all night and sleep all day, but unfortunately having children has made that more than a little inconvenient :)

Jason has an erratic work schedule that is going to make timing to see each other a little awkward, but he definitely seems to be committed to finding a way to making it work! He dropped by this morning to spend an hour with me before his shift. I told him he was crazy since it involved a whole hour extra of driving, but he said I was worth it :) And go figure- I was kind of expecting that for a man to drop by for an hour that he'd want to have a quickie. I even had some lingerie on although nothing ridiculously exciting- just a pair of blue silk and black lace pants and a matching camisole. Nope. Instead we did go to bed and just cuddled and kissed and touched for an hour. I asked him if he had wanted anything more and he said he was just enjoying this. He said he'll leave me wanting more LOL. It was nice thinking that he wanted to enjoy my company and not just get a quick fuck. And I love cuddling, so it was a great morning.

He also showed up with a carton of my favourite ice cream! I was so surprised at how thoughtful that was. We'd just been chatting to get to know each other and I told him that I loved mint chocolate chip. It was very sweet (bad pun, yes I know!). I really love to be spoiled, and I don't just mean by getting things. I think it's more of an attitude than anything else.

I'll be honest, I don't have that intense desire and attraction for him that I've had with partners in the past, but he's a handsome man and he's treating me very well. I'm still really enjoying his company. I wonder if that's what I'm missing, since I'm cutting a few guys loose? I really do miss that electric bolt of attraction and desire for a man, wanting him so badly that I have to rip his clothes off and beg him to fuck me now... Sigh.

Sunday, 17 March 2013

I love days like this...

I'm still trying to figure out where I am going with this blog. Do I just keep writing about my dates and titillating my readers (hopefully)? I'm undecided yet how personal I will let it go with my thoughts and feelings. I'm thinking that I might slow down with the ultra casual sex and meeting new guys. I started going through my cell contacts and seeing how many men there I had fucked at least once and was still at least tentatively seeing and that got a little overwhelming! While it's fun to be a little slutty, I don't think it's really who I am. I joked with my husband that I've been averaging one new guy a week but I don't think I'm going to keep it up. I like to have a connection with the men I have sex with and it's just not the same otherwise. Sex is fun, but sex with someone you genuinely like and enjoy spending time with is much better. I'm sure that won't stop me from being tempted once in a while, though! :)

I've been busy lately and haven't had a lot of time to write, but I've still been getting into trouble! I haven't done it for a while, but I always thought it was a real turn on to fuck two different men in one day, neither of whom are my husband. One day I'll manage to get three and fuck him too, but he hasn't been home the days where I had the opportunity. Oh well- something else for my bucket list!

So on Thursday last week, I had two dates planned- one with Andrew in the evening, and one with *Jason in the morning. I'm really starting to enjoy Andrew- he's a genuinely good guy and he's fun to experiment with. I enjoy his company and just hanging out with him. So he came over in the evening and we watched a movie, which was interrupted by a loud and wet round of sex partway through :) We tried a few new things from my toy box and really enjoyed each other. I think I'm corrupting him ;)

I had met Jason for lunch the week before. He's in an open marriage as well and I'm his first experience dating since he got married. He seemed to be much more shy in person than he did online which surprised me a little, but it was refreshing. We had a nice lunch date so I was interested in seeing him again. This time he brought over a pizza from my favourite local pizza place and we just hung out for a while at my house. It was interesting just enjoying the sexual tension... I could tell so many times that he wanted to kiss me or touch me but wasn't sure that it was okay, so I had fun flirting and teasing.

What was really nice was by the time we got to bed, we still took it slowly. I haven't been with a man for a while that was content just kissing me and caressing me in a mostly nonsexual manner. I like sex as much as the next person (okay, way more than the next person!) but it was really nice to take our time and just enjoy each other's bodies. I'm looking forward to seeing where this goes.

I'm really enjoying having two local guys that are giving me the attention I want (both text daily) and available on a fairly regular basis. It's a refreshing change from the guys who flake or aren't who they say they are. Perhaps I just got lucky? Either way, I think I'll keep these ones for a while :)

Monday, 11 March 2013


I wonder what it is inside me that has made me miss kink so much. I saw someone's avatar on another website that had a big sign on it that said "Stop- do not call 911! Consensual BDSM going on!" and it made me wonder; what is it about that kind of treatment that turns me on? I'm not a masochist, although I enjoy spankings and am willing to experiment further. I don't enjoy pain for the sake of pain. I have a healthy self esteem and self respect; so why do I enjoy giving up control? I'm not really sure, but it doesn't particularly bother me, either. As long as everyone is consenting to and enjoying the activities, there's no need to overanalyze.

I've been craving bondage lately. I really miss being tied and held captive to a man's desire for me, knowing that he can do whatever he wishes with me. I think a big part of me gets off on the trust, too; knowing that whatever comes will be pleasurable for both of us. Unfortunately, while sex is easy to come by, trust is less so!

I recently put up an ad on a BDSM dating site in the hopes that I could find someone to experiment with. I'm always a little leery because in the kink community, people always recommend playing at a party first. Well, that doesn't necessarily work for me since I enjoy my kink in the context of sex, and some play parties are not sex friendly. While I know that some people enjoy kink for its own sake, I'm not really one of them. If I get turned on, then I want to fuck :) So parties don't really work, but it's always a little nerve wracking doing one on one.

I've been chatting with *Benjamin for a few days, and was very interested in meeting him. I love tall men, and I love feeling small next to them. I'm not particularly tiny at 5'4, but I certainly look that way next to a man who stands 6'6! I enjoyed teasing him and sending him some sexy pictures of me in lingerie until he told me that he couldn't resist and had to come meet me in person.

I was nervous- I haven't explored this side of my personality for months, and never really got too much into it in the past, either. But I've still always felt drawn to it even though I'm not sure how well it would work.

I loved the way that he handled me so easily... I wore heels and still felt little. We had some fabulously hot, sweaty sex, and I certainly enjoyed his oral talents! I'm still not sure where my comfort level is, but I did have fun, so I guess we'll see how things go.

Friday, 8 March 2013

Where does the time go?

I never really thought that I could be so happy. How could I have been so lucky as to find a wonderful man who loves me and cares about me so much that he's willing to share me to let me be happy? Someone who accepts me exactly as I am? It's the most wonderful feeling in the world.

Today was our eighth anniversary. Things just keep getting better between us, and we're talking about renewing our vows next year now that we really understand ourselves and each other. We got married very young and it feels like we've just started to find ourselves.

It's really funny when you think about it; Mark and I have very little in common. We like different things and we can bore each other to tears at times. But underneath it all is a foundation of love and respect and desire for the other person to be happy and succeed at their goals in life, and that carries us through. Well, along with desire for each other, of course :)

We had a really nice evening together. We dropped our daughter off at my inlaws' so we could go out to dinner. We had a nice romantic meal and then came home and watched a movie on the couch- sometimes it's better to relax at home than to stay out. I put on some sexy lingerie- a short pink lace chemise and black thigh high stockings. I just felt so contented lying there cuddled up with my head in his lap, and then of course had to share some of that contentment ;) I gave him a wet, sloppy blowjob until I couldn't resist and let him fill my mouth with cum. After the movie we went upstairs and he spanked me for being his naughty little whore until my ass was a nice shade of pink, and he made me orgasm over and over before he filled my pussy with cum. I love the way it feels when a man cums deep inside me. I always practice safe sex with my casual partners but that's one thing I really miss. Sigh- the world we live in unfortunately.

It was a lovely anniversary! I'm such a lucky hotwife.

Wednesday, 6 March 2013


So, lately I've decided to broaden my horizons and try something new. Perhaps it's not something you'd expect of me, but I really am shy at heart. I feel awkward in large groups unless I have people I know around, or in unfamiliar situations.

However, I am finding that I really miss kink. I did a little play with one of my partners last year that I had a solid, trusting relationship with, and I really enjoyed it. We don't see each other anymore because of various reasons, but I wanted to do some more exploring. I set up a profile on FetLife and decided to go to a local munch. I was a little anxious about going by myself to a new situation, so I invited Andrew to go with me. He has never been involved in kink but was curious so he said yes. The pictures he's seen of me in rope really turned him on, to say the least!

I think both of us were a little overwhelmed, but I tried to get over my shyness and smile and meet new people. I think I did a little of that but it was still kind of foggy if that makes any sense. I don't remember anyone's name but I passed out a few cards and met one really cute guy that interested me and we flirted a bit. It was an interesting experience to go there with one guy and still be looking at picking up others! There was one point in the evening that I had my high heeled boots in Andrew's lap (I was wearing a flowing skirt and a tight black low cut sweater, and garters and black stockings underneath) and I was flirting with another guy sitting next to me- surreal but a lot of fun!

After the munch, we went back to Andrew's place for a little fun. I had warned him that it was the end of my cycle and I'd be happy to just give him head, but he told me he didn't mind. Oh, that got him big brownie points :) I still gave him the blowjob, and he gave me several satisfying orgasms with his fingers. One of the things I really enjoy about him is that he's a kisser and a cuddler. There isn't a lot more satisfying than hot, passionate kisses where you just want to rip each other's clothes off... and snuggling on a man's chest and enjoying the afterglow is the best.

Tuesday, 5 March 2013


Nothing too exciting lately- my husband and I just got back from vacation and we had decided in advance that this trip was going to be just for us. I was happy with that; since we have a young child, it's great for us to have some time for ourselves to reconnect away from the stress of real life. So no extramarital sex, but we had a lot of fun. I always enjoy rejoining the balcony club ;) It was a real turn on to be naked on my knees sucking his cock out in the warm sea breeze and knowing there were people out on their balconies just a few feet away!

We did have a lot of fun people watching, though. Now, Mark really has no interest in playing with another woman; he's told me that he thinks he's a one woman man. But that didn't stop us from checking out people of both genders onboard and kidding around about them. Every time he saw an attractive woman and asked me what I thought, I joked back that as long as he shared it was fine with me!

I don't actually identify as bisexual, but I've had an MFF threesome before. I don't have that same attraction to women as I do to men, but in a group situation, I don't really care who's licking my pussy! If it feels good, I'll go along with it. When I had my MFF back in November, Mark was out of town but on his way home. I told him I was going to hang out with a couple (I had met *James at a kink get together and we hit it off) but warned him that I didn't expect anything to happen. After all, my whole life I had always identified as straight and had no interest in having sex with a woman.

But labels are so sticky... so while I still identify myself as straight, I also know that I'm up for having fun and enjoying myself and seeing where it goes. After all, I am doing things now that I would never have imagined, so who knows what I'll be doing next year or even next month?

So I went to James and *Tina's house, and we had a few drinks and chatted. They are both great people and I really enjoyed their company. I find sex is really enjoyable with people that you have chemistry with and just plain like; I've never really been much for stranger sex (although at times that can be fun too!).

We went upstairs on the pretext that I was going to film James and Tina having sex. She was a little nervous too as this was also her first experience with a woman. So they started kissing and the clothes started coming off while I watched. It was incredibly erotic to watch two people live having sex- much better than porn! James looked at me and smiled and said he thought I was wearing too many clothes. I put the camera down and walked over, and slid out of my skirt. He kissed me and pulled my shirt over my head. I hadn't quite planned on playing, but I came prepared anyway in a purple satin and black lace bra and thong with matching garter belt and black stockings. I took off the bra and panties but left on the garter and stockings.

After that, my memory is a jumbled haze of fingers and tongues and lips. I remember sucking James' cock while Tina played with my pussy, and I remember making out with Tina while James used a vibrator on both of us. And I remember having some very intense orgasms. It was a lot of fun. I didn't go down on Tina because I was a little nervous, but maybe next time I'll feel more comfortable. Either way, my first experience in group sex was a lot of fun!

And Mark went absolutely crazy when he got home. I beat him there by about ten minutes and he was texting me nonstop begging for details. When he came home, he just bent me over, ripped off my panties, and fucked me hard and fast. He just couldn't get enough. I think this is what it must be like for "traditional" hotwives! Almost a little overwhelming. But I was glad he enjoyed the thought!

But, I'm sure the next item on my bucket list will be a lot more fun! I've been dying to have a MFM for quite some time. I want so many things... I want to be on my knees with two cocks to play with. I want to be spit roasted. I want to have my pussy licked while making out with the other man. And my ultimate fantasy is to be licked while I am getting fucked. I think that will be the most intense pleasure. I'm not quite ready for double penetration yet, but one day I think I'd love that.

Mark and I are trying to set it up and I have permission to start looking for a third. I don't know if it'll work before he leaves for his next long haul run, but I can't wait to experience it!