Monday, 26 November 2018

Happy Birthday to Me!

So things are really, really good right now. I don't think I've been this content, let alone happy, in a while.

This weekend was my birthday, and we had a big open house party for people to drop in and hang out and have food and drinks and socialize. The house got crowded, but it was nice to have so many people who wanted to celebrate with me. I felt loved and special :)  My friends all know that we're poly and kinky, since the majority of them are part of the BDSM community and the other ones have been around long enough to love me anyway. So Charles was there too, and as my boyfriend, not just a regular guest. I always love it when I can be affectionate to both my partners without having to worry about people's reactions.

Since we were drinking, lots of people wound up crashing in my living room. I invited Charles to stay the night, and Henry suggested that we take the master bedroom for the night and he'd get me the next day. That seemed fair to me!

We were tired and a little drunk, but Charles and I wound up naked in bed and kissing. We talked a little and soon his hard cock was leaking on me and I started teasing him. He said to me, "Well, I'm in bed with a beautiful woman, what did you expect to happen?" One thing led to another and soon we were having passionate sex. It was just so good to be lying in his arms and not to have to worry about one of us needing to go home.

And while I think he had a pretty good idea of how I've been feeling, I am indeed a big fan of communicating directly with words. But I didn't want to set up a big thing with pressure and expectations, so I waited until we were cuddling after sex and deciding to go to sleep. When I said goodnight, I also whispered in his ear, "I love you."

Charles grabbed my face and started kissing me in a way I can only describe as happy and enthusiastic- kinda like a puppy? And then he said "I know you want to go to sleep, but you can't drop a bomb like that on a man and then just pull away!" I told him that I just didn't want to create expectation or make things awkward. He kissed me again and then we went to sleep.

All my relationships feel differently; I've noticed even my NRE has been feeling different this go around, and I think I'm just more conscious if it now so it likely was before, too. This love isn't the same as the one I feel for Henry. It's unique to my connection with Charles, and right now it's just growing. But I think that he and I have something together, and I'm so glad that I met him and have him in my life.

I told Henry about that chat afterwards, and he got all playful with me and started teasing me about "catching the feels". But he was happy that I'm so happy. I'm glad I can share moments like that with him. Having him as my husband is pretty wonderful!

In the morning, I woke up next to Charles and we had pretty amazing morning sex. He joked that I'm going to fuck him to death! I just find it amusing that I have two boys and my sex drive outstrips both of them put together! I see why women choose to become cougars; they want to have a boy toy who can just keep going and going and going like the Energizer bunny ;)   Thankfully, I don't think I've hit quite that age, but both my partners are younger, so call me what you like!

And then the next day I spent with Henry- to be continued...


  1. the truth be told most men can not keep up with a very sexual woman and to me it makes perfect sense for her to have more than one lover and one love. I can sense your deep connection and loving feelings for both men. I think one time my wife had a guy who came into her life and he was definitely falling in love with her. The feeling was not mutual but if it had been, I would have been totally fine with it and even envisioned the three of us living together.

  2. Well, I doubt I'll ever see myself living with a lover, too, but I've learned never to say never because people and things change. It's amazing how many things I do now that I used to say I never would!

    Henry is certainly more open to that sort of thing than I am. He doesn't mind living with housemates. I think that as long as we have a child in the house it would be a no-go for sure. Who knows after that, though? I'm very much a My-Home-Is-My-Castle person though, and I'm pretty tough to live with ;)

    For now, this is pretty good. I get Charles two days a week, and Henry pretty much whenever I want him. Life is good :)